Autumn on the hill

When time for the first autumn leaves comes to fall down;

And as they spread colour around every garden’s lawn;

I sit and stare from the top of the highest hill, from miles

And I catch a glimpse of some of your sweet and true smiles,

Smiles that can brighten my day and warm my soul for hours.

When time for the chilly wind comes to play with our hair

And it keeps us cold as I stare at you and my heart meets her pair.

No wonder, as your gaze meets mine, I shiver with all my parts,

Shiver like those autumn leaves on all the trees that are around

Or graciously fall from height making no sound hitting the ground.

When time for the season’s unfriendly, cold rain comes to pour;

And the beauty of the world’s nature becomes from pure all sour;

I now stand on the top of this hill ready to run towards you,

Towards you, my dream, who brightens my day and warms my soul

Because letting you get away would make me nothing but a fool.

When time for nature comes at autumn to turn into copper brown;

And all there is just seems in depths of sorrow to sink and drown;

I’m halfway there to meet my heart’s only desire on this special night,

On this special night when magic becomes alive and we’ll never be apart,

Cause you are my only and I am your one and that in my heart gets carved.

When time for night’s darkness again comes to fall on the town;

And all the lights go out and just magic lights up the sights around;

I finally reach the bottom of the hill and all the roads are narrow,

I’m not miles away from you and there is no more gloom or sorrow

As I reach you and in your arms in safeness I believe a miracle i’ve found.

Creating magic on a lonesome shore

Along the shores of that lonesome beach, 

Marks in the crystal sand under my feet,

I gaze away but my sight doesn't reach

The eyes of the one that i wish to meet.

Reflecting on the top of the stormy sea,

Catching a glance of how I seems  to be,

Stepping down memory lane starting to see

This special reflection in his eyes of me.

From the depths of clear lights in his eyes,

Mirroring back a smiling gracious beauty,

Someone I am in presence of his gaze only,

Without, my value vanishes I become empty.

While listening to this lonely silent melody,

Wondering whether he misses me dearly?

Missing him drowning in sweet melancholy,

Lost and trapped in insecurity completely.

Entangled in his perfume's reminiscence,

I keep missing him like moon misses sky,

Or the way stars are missing the nights

But even if it hurts I cannot say goodbye.

Cause over the mountains, lands and hills,

When i'm alone and there’s no life left to live,

Remembering my heart shatters and bleeds,

There he comes and makes me still believe.

Far away on my own at this lonesome shore,

I'm part of something special that's just our.

He makes me feel that I'm capable of more

We're creating magic not settling till we own.

A glimpse of memory

Tonight I let my feelings run wild,

I think of you,

I close my eyes

Open my heart to the magic lane of memory,

Precious vulnerability of emotions of the past.

In the vanilla scented candle light,

I start to dance 

I’m on your side

Embrace you slowly as moving in harmony to

Gracious lyrical melody of pianos of the times.

Listening to the language of hearts,

I start to feel,

And  grow to know

That while the song last you are only mine,

Unconscious truth of a long lost night of past.

Shining together in world’s mystery

I’m your princess

And you’re my star

Creating together a once in a lifetime story,

Specious beauty of two hearts of timeless time.

But I gently have to open my eyes

There is no princess

And there is no star

Leaving my fragile reminiscences all behind

Anxious dreaming  to see it true one time in life.

Holding stars in your palms

In the crystal darkness by the river side

I saw you standing and so I tried to hide.

Lonely, with your hands open towards

the sky so clear like a real piece of art.

As the moon reflected on the river top

I gracefully watched you, couldn’t stop.

You shined with peace as all the stars

from above all gathered in your palms.

You were holding light gracious as ever

 then you smiled , i won’t forget, never.

So i walked close to fall in love with you

and closed my eyes as i sae you did too.

You held my hand, kissed me just in case

 i’d disappear so you kept me in embrace.

Your voice was like a melody saying to me

 Now we can be whatever we want to be.

You kept a star and gave me another one

our destiny joint before the moment’s gone.

In hope and pure love i lived that night

but times has passed and nothing’s right.

The light is gone, and the heart is empty

you’re not to find and tears are plenty.

So i went back one last time to the river

just to find that there’s no more glitter.

In the haunting darkness of the river side

I saw you standing and i didn’t try to hide.

You stood with her lifting your hands high

to the sky, forgotten me in this lonely  cry.

And then you looked deep into my eye.

holding the stars in your hands saying bye.

But don’t forget that you’re holding starts in your palms!

Cause he is the light tonight

My emotions fly on wing’s of timeless time

dispersing soundless confessions of mine.

At midnight at shadow of crescent moon,

my secret words come out of their cocoon,

leading me into this fearless dreamy mime...

as i think of him cause he is the light tonight.

My soul starts dancing to slow harp melody

lifting me gracious when around is nobody.

At this moment of true wonder and sparkle ,

in my heart rebirths a small sentiment parcel,

covering my eyes in blithe losing track of agony...

as i think of  him cause he is the light tonight.

Twinkling of stars illuminates the sky around,

dead roses of love turn to red on the ground.

In time of darkness my feelings turn lyrical, 

in harmony  happens a long overdue miracle,

i see my angle to realise i’ve been finally found...

as i think of him cause he is the light tonight.

Painless longing disappears suddenly in the air,

when vanilla fragrance spreads around my hair.

The crystal tears from my face slowly fade away,

while i’m taken by hand and  kept from astray,

walking side by side with my desire’s angel in care...

as i think of him cause he is the light tonight.

When lights go out tonight

The light of the candle suddenly dies

And silent darkness all around you flies.

Reflection of emotions of what has been

and what’s not there, those that mean

nothing but much to only you in there

soul that has been lost not knowing where.

Streetlamp marks contour of your face

And the night’s pain takes you in embrace.

Remnants of those memories of long lost

angelic innocence, haunt you that almost

make you lose your breath unconsciously

gasping for air to lift yourself up to slowly fly.

Flashlight shows a strange world being part

Of sweet dreams tonight to host your heart. 

Hopes that vanished under life’s Dark Knight

reappear in illusions and you  without fight

accept them true and blind to lead you now

 silently on that mystery path no matter how.

A magical path is sparkling away and ahead

And with your eyes closed  a tear you shed.

As little voice of your past clings from behind

tells you about wonders you’re unable to find

so the magic slowly dies, the music stops to rhyme

case you’re all alone for the rest of the time.

Magic bond forming tonight

Standing in my room’s dim light

Watching the sky catching a sight

As stars are dancing up there high.

Knowing that special someone is

Just somewhere far away tonight.

Crystal pearls the stars that shine

Across the blueness called skyline

Making every little thing purely fine.

Thinking of him standing so bright

In the peace that’s spread tonight.

Beams lighting the sky in harmony

When owls sing a midnight melody

Late night butterflies dancing only.

Lifting my hand up above to write

Lullabies so he can see them tonight.

Slow wind blowing simply around

Linking our emotions that are found

Making it all feel like a magic bound.

Swinging away with a smile so right

Going to bed finally happy tonight.

true love ( or how i wish to be loved)

I was there and it was a perfect summer night..just as perfect as i always imagined it to be. I was so happy i could barely walk on the earth i felt like i have wings and i could fly...fly above everything and everyone without letting anything or anyone hurt me anymore. She was right there besides me and i could finally hold her hand. The soft skin on the back of her hand reminded me of a child’s cheek. I was holding her hand gently and nothing else mattered. I knew that i will never have this feeling ever. That no one else could give me this feeling in this entire world. She had that girly smile on her face and it looked like she finally feels happy. 

We were sitting on the grass, her hand in mine and we were watching the stars. She was looking up at the sky and i was looking at her. She was so beautiful she sparkled in the night just like a star. She was my star. I couldn’t help staring at her, analyzing every little part of her face. Seeing the sweetness and beauty shine on her. She realised i was looking at her..well i was rather staring. She looked at me and asked if everything is okay. I stared back at her, looked deep into her eyes realising i can see the whole world in them, i can see the past, present and what’s more important the future. 

As the light chilly breeze was playing with her brownish golden hair i could see a reflection of myself in her eyes, a reflection of who i am when she looks at me, the person i always been searching for. I don’t think i ever felt that much love for anyone ever. I didn’t want anything else just stay there holding her hand and admiring her blink from time to time forever. i couldn’t sense the moments stepping into the past, all i could feel was eternity...that i will love her always and forever. I didn’t know how she felt. I’ve been terrified to ask her because that was a dream in the middle of the cruel reality and i didn’t want to wake up ever.  By this time she was gazing at the blue velvet sky again. 

She lifted up her other hand and showed me the most shinny star...she told me how she’d love to be on it and look down from it and watch the people and countries, watch the sunset and sunrise, the seasons changing, lovers walking, people growing old and children getting born. I watched the enthusiasm on her face as she told me all that and i couldn’t help but smile. Her innocence was precious. It totally charmed me, made me want to be around her and forget the whole cruelty of the world out there. She stopped talking and took some deep breaths from the chilly air around us as she lifted her head up to the sky again. I closed my eyes and smiled with every little piece of my heart. I could feel her slowly laying her head on my shoulder and i put my arms around her. Each of her simple movements was gracious and beautiful. It felt like a miracle. I can still recall the moments when i didn’t open my eyes just enjoyed the way her hair gently touches my face as the wind blows. Every time her hair flew in the wind i could inhale the sweet scent of her perfume. A fragrance i will never forget, mystic, charming yet innocent. Just like her. The delicate odour totally froze me and i had to lay a little closer not to lose track of it. I laid my head on hers and i kissed it. She was in my arms now and i could sense that she was feeling safe. 

We stood like that for hours. We didn’t move at all just stood quietly observing the world around us. I was the happiest person alive in that night as i had her near me enjoying the simple fact of having close the angel i loved from all my soul. I sang to her for a little while some slow melody and she snuggled a little closer, eventually she fell asleep in my arms. I couldn’t stop guarding her sleep. She looked amazingly peaceful in my arms like she always belonged there. I stood awake all night long holding her like a child holds their most precious toy or teddy. With grace and care not to broke her or hurt her. The sun started shining across the landscape with gorgeous reddish orange lines when she opened her eyes and looked at me, she seemed surprised of me still keeping her close. She kissed my cheek and we watched the sunrise together. The emotional closeness and harmony i felt with her was unrealistic and it made me feel like i’m dreaming and will wake up soon.

Think of me and I'll be fine

When the morning brings new ray
 

And you open your eyes for a new day

Think of me and I’ll be fine. 

When you hear the nature’s voice

And to answer is your preferred choice

Think of me and I’ll be fine.

When you get lost in the beauty land

And when you hold happiness by hand

Think of me and I’ll be fine.

When fragrance fondles your scent

As red flowers swing your way absent

Think of me and I’ll be fine.

When the magic seems to vanish

and all skies start to turn to greyish

Think of me and I’ll be fine.

When raindrops flood your cheeks

While with sadness your soul speaks

Think of me and I’ll be fine.

When all those clouds have drifted

And by daydreams your mood is lifted

Think of me and I’ll be fine.

When the warm air hits your face

As the breeze holds you in embrace

Think of me and I’ll be fine.

When the sun is setting down again

And you replace with joy your pain

Think of me and I’ll be fine.

When the colours make you blind

By beams that you seem not to mind

Think of me and I’ll be fine.

When you look tonight at the stars

At those gorgeous lonely sparks

Think of me and I’ll be fine.

When the moonlight guides you by

On your perfect journey while you fly

Think of me and I’ll be fine.

When you walk in the lovely light

Distance gathers in your eyes so right

Think of me and I’ll be fine.

When you dream with butterflies

And wander on the wings of times

Think of me and I’ll be fine.

You ( an old poem)

              

Being my daylight,

Shining for me instead of my star.

Loving me at night and dawn:

You are the one and only one.

Comforting me when night is unkind,

Waking me with newborn light,

Showing way and guiding bright:

You are the one and only one.

Waiting for the time to come,

Listening when all is said and done,

Smiling just for having fun:

You are the one and only one.

Holding me close when i so feel,

Wiping my tears me when i so need,

Now that is confirmed and official:

You are the one and only one.

 

 

In the dead of the night

I’m walking on the edge of this slippery road

All that follows me is a shadow that is odd,

In the dead of the night when the sky

Is plain and true,

Crystal and blue.

I’m holding my head down and make no sound

Silently letting my tears to touch the ground,

In the dead of the night when the rain

Is falling and washing,

My cheeks of crying.

I embrace the darkness that surrounds me

There’s nothing more that’s left to be,

In the dead of the night when the light

Is being blurred,

Far and truly blind.

I lift my hands up while I start to helplessly run

From the pristine sanity of this darkling fun,

In the dead of the night when the echo

Is strangely vivid,

Scary and torrid.

I’m giving up on the longing to be save right now

As dark’s ebony fluid is poisoning my heart,

In the dead of the night when miracle

Is slowly at dying,

Has lost its shine.

Heartfelt Chirsmtas

Throughout the month of December the world is trying to be better,

Waiting for something special  led by candle lights to come near,

For the delightful one and only Christmas each and every year...

When souls are filled with joy and warmth of love, there is no fear.

Crystal snowflakes fall forming a flossy blanket on the ground,

Cheesy Christmas songs and cinnamon scent is spread all around.

People are rushing on the streets with gift bags crossing the crowd.

Children are making snow angels that are easy to be found.

Lights and decorations are fitted on the buildings in our hometown.

Orange and pine flavour encounters us at home when we sit down.

Our Christmas trees are shining in the houses from night till dawn.

No wonder we can celebrate almost now ...let’s begin the countdown.

Then we open up our hearts for the magic of Christmas to come.

As puddings, cakes and cookies are combined with love to create some

Atmosphere that  is truly blessed, precious and far from worrisome.

Everyone seems ready for a new true Christmas eve to welcome.

If only for one day wrapped around people’s soul is real affection

The world is celebrating, in hearts Christmas records are put on.

People sharing gifts, dinners, prayers showing great appreciation,

No one should be on their own celebrating love, care and attention.

What is right...? (How to love him)

Spending quality time gazing at the sky..

Hoping that special someone is just fine!

Miles away unablae to touch or even smile

Holding him close deep inside my heart.

The only place where i can finally find

Some kind of inner peace instead of cry!

He is my everything my sky and my star

Nothing can change that ...no time apart!

Filling the void that’s in my heart with his

Care... spreading those healing magical

Words that are oh way too hard to find.

Unexplainably special is all he ever was!

Afraid to lose him after opening hearts up.

Scared he might get hurt and I won’t be

There or able to make a difference in his life.

At least protect him from all the painful scars

Hide him away from the wrong that is around.

Make him feel again the beauty of the blithe!

Uncertainty is all that’s found in me now:

Who am I to really know what’s so right?

What if I’m selfish enough to screw it up?

To turn the wrong to worse to find:

That all I dreamt of and fought for had just

Simply fell apart in the middle of the night.

Walk along the day...inner song

 

Far away at the edge of the horizon  

The beauty of the dawn puts show on

Filling this soul of mine with affection

Can this be an all time permanent  affirmation?

Blinding sunlight feeds my deepest part

Melancholic sound to tear me apart

Distant yet calling me...sweetheart

Is this supposed to be some kind of torturing art?

Warm late breeze touching my hair

 My heart skips a beat my lungs gasp for air

Reminisce of love is suppressed by despair

How can possibly a magical life like this be so unfair?

Pinkish orange sky leads me eager

Blithe and gloom to guide together

My angels fight my demons for better

Does  this slight chance of change even matter?

Silver blanket and evening melody

Makes our souls dance without a body

Embraces me gently...so true and godly

IF this feels so perfect why isn’t here anybody?

Enchanting moonlight gives me life

You and me spinning to the star's fife

Charming memory just like a real knife

Do you truly think this is just an endless strife?

In the dark of the this ebony night

I call out for some new born light

For a ray of sparkle to show me sight

Is there a solution for this painful inner fight?

I look around, wonder and start to see

No one is ever here except to me

Lonely and lost...seems like there is no we

Why won't this miserable ache for once just let me be?

 Feeling all the hurt that lays inside

When pure solitude and love collide

Two opposites which stay right beside

Will there ever be something like a  winning side?