Creating magic on a lonesome shore

Along the shores of that lonesome beach, 

Marks in the crystal sand under my feet,

I gaze away but my sight doesn't reach

The eyes of the one that i wish to meet.

Reflecting on the top of the stormy sea,

Catching a glance of how I seems  to be,

Stepping down memory lane starting to see

This special reflection in his eyes of me.

From the depths of clear lights in his eyes,

Mirroring back a smiling gracious beauty,

Someone I am in presence of his gaze only,

Without, my value vanishes I become empty.

While listening to this lonely silent melody,

Wondering whether he misses me dearly?

Missing him drowning in sweet melancholy,

Lost and trapped in insecurity completely.

Entangled in his perfume's reminiscence,

I keep missing him like moon misses sky,

Or the way stars are missing the nights

But even if it hurts I cannot say goodbye.

Cause over the mountains, lands and hills,

When i'm alone and there’s no life left to live,

Remembering my heart shatters and bleeds,

There he comes and makes me still believe.

Far away on my own at this lonesome shore,

I'm part of something special that's just our.

He makes me feel that I'm capable of more

We're creating magic not settling till we own.

A glimpse of memory

Tonight I let my feelings run wild,

I think of you,

I close my eyes

Open my heart to the magic lane of memory,

Precious vulnerability of emotions of the past.

In the vanilla scented candle light,

I start to dance 

I’m on your side

Embrace you slowly as moving in harmony to

Gracious lyrical melody of pianos of the times.

Listening to the language of hearts,

I start to feel,

And  grow to know

That while the song last you are only mine,

Unconscious truth of a long lost night of past.

Shining together in world’s mystery

I’m your princess

And you’re my star

Creating together a once in a lifetime story,

Specious beauty of two hearts of timeless time.

But I gently have to open my eyes

There is no princess

And there is no star

Leaving my fragile reminiscences all behind

Anxious dreaming  to see it true one time in life.

Holding stars in your palms

In the crystal darkness by the river side

I saw you standing and so I tried to hide.

Lonely, with your hands open towards

the sky so clear like a real piece of art.

As the moon reflected on the river top

I gracefully watched you, couldn’t stop.

You shined with peace as all the stars

from above all gathered in your palms.

You were holding light gracious as ever

 then you smiled , i won’t forget, never.

So i walked close to fall in love with you

and closed my eyes as i sae you did too.

You held my hand, kissed me just in case

 i’d disappear so you kept me in embrace.

Your voice was like a melody saying to me

 Now we can be whatever we want to be.

You kept a star and gave me another one

our destiny joint before the moment’s gone.

In hope and pure love i lived that night

but times has passed and nothing’s right.

The light is gone, and the heart is empty

you’re not to find and tears are plenty.

So i went back one last time to the river

just to find that there’s no more glitter.

In the haunting darkness of the river side

I saw you standing and i didn’t try to hide.

You stood with her lifting your hands high

to the sky, forgotten me in this lonely  cry.

And then you looked deep into my eye.

holding the stars in your hands saying bye.

But don’t forget that you’re holding starts in your palms!

Cause he is the light tonight

My emotions fly on wing’s of timeless time

dispersing soundless confessions of mine.

At midnight at shadow of crescent moon,

my secret words come out of their cocoon,

leading me into this fearless dreamy mime...

as i think of him cause he is the light tonight.

My soul starts dancing to slow harp melody

lifting me gracious when around is nobody.

At this moment of true wonder and sparkle ,

in my heart rebirths a small sentiment parcel,

covering my eyes in blithe losing track of agony...

as i think of  him cause he is the light tonight.

Twinkling of stars illuminates the sky around,

dead roses of love turn to red on the ground.

In time of darkness my feelings turn lyrical, 

in harmony  happens a long overdue miracle,

i see my angle to realise i’ve been finally found...

as i think of him cause he is the light tonight.

Painless longing disappears suddenly in the air,

when vanilla fragrance spreads around my hair.

The crystal tears from my face slowly fade away,

while i’m taken by hand and  kept from astray,

walking side by side with my desire’s angel in care...

as i think of him cause he is the light tonight.

When lights go out tonight

The light of the candle suddenly dies

And silent darkness all around you flies.

Reflection of emotions of what has been

and what’s not there, those that mean

nothing but much to only you in there

soul that has been lost not knowing where.

Streetlamp marks contour of your face

And the night’s pain takes you in embrace.

Remnants of those memories of long lost

angelic innocence, haunt you that almost

make you lose your breath unconsciously

gasping for air to lift yourself up to slowly fly.

Flashlight shows a strange world being part

Of sweet dreams tonight to host your heart. 

Hopes that vanished under life’s Dark Knight

reappear in illusions and you  without fight

accept them true and blind to lead you now

 silently on that mystery path no matter how.

A magical path is sparkling away and ahead

And with your eyes closed  a tear you shed.

As little voice of your past clings from behind

tells you about wonders you’re unable to find

so the magic slowly dies, the music stops to rhyme

case you’re all alone for the rest of the time.

Magic bond forming tonight

Standing in my room’s dim light

Watching the sky catching a sight

As stars are dancing up there high.

Knowing that special someone is

Just somewhere far away tonight.

Crystal pearls the stars that shine

Across the blueness called skyline

Making every little thing purely fine.

Thinking of him standing so bright

In the peace that’s spread tonight.

Beams lighting the sky in harmony

When owls sing a midnight melody

Late night butterflies dancing only.

Lifting my hand up above to write

Lullabies so he can see them tonight.

Slow wind blowing simply around

Linking our emotions that are found

Making it all feel like a magic bound.

Swinging away with a smile so right

Going to bed finally happy tonight.

Walk along the day...inner song

 

Far away at the edge of the horizon  

The beauty of the dawn puts show on

Filling this soul of mine with affection

Can this be an all time permanent  affirmation?

Blinding sunlight feeds my deepest part

Melancholic sound to tear me apart

Distant yet calling me...sweetheart

Is this supposed to be some kind of torturing art?

Warm late breeze touching my hair

 My heart skips a beat my lungs gasp for air

Reminisce of love is suppressed by despair

How can possibly a magical life like this be so unfair?

Pinkish orange sky leads me eager

Blithe and gloom to guide together

My angels fight my demons for better

Does  this slight chance of change even matter?

Silver blanket and evening melody

Makes our souls dance without a body

Embraces me gently...so true and godly

IF this feels so perfect why isn’t here anybody?

Enchanting moonlight gives me life

You and me spinning to the star's fife

Charming memory just like a real knife

Do you truly think this is just an endless strife?

In the dark of the this ebony night

I call out for some new born light

For a ray of sparkle to show me sight

Is there a solution for this painful inner fight?

I look around, wonder and start to see

No one is ever here except to me

Lonely and lost...seems like there is no we

Why won't this miserable ache for once just let me be?

 Feeling all the hurt that lays inside

When pure solitude and love collide

Two opposites which stay right beside

Will there ever be something like a  winning side?

my dear friend

So I can see that i haven't wrote for more than 5 months.... shame on me :)
Ok.. i give up for the moment to change or help the world... i wish to present one of my friends....
Her name is Loneliness :)
She is always near me.... i can't get rid of her .. she always comes and leaves.. she thinks she caught my soul and she controls my life... who knows maybe she is right !!!
It's like a step sister who wants to bother you all along.. She really enjoys making me cry or making me nervous... She wakes me up in the night and tries to take my dreams away...
the only person who she can't fight with are my dreams... They keep me alive, cause if i would let with her on my own i'm sure she would try to kill me :(
sometimes things happen but we don't really know why.. confusion is in my empty soul... love, hate ,hope, loneliness they are all living in my soul.. but they all seem weak to win above the other ones........ They only show me how to be hurt inside
But i promised myself that one day i He will kill her.. and that He should come soon to save me from myself and from her .. He will surely come :)

illusions

I was wondering if they are good or bad?
To be a day dreamer , to run after illusions! I think it can be good you can create yourself a kind of dream world and you can find your place in it . You can have a dream an illusion which can cheer you up or can make you happy. Maybe everyone should have illusions ! The most of us are afraid of not reaching their dreams and illusions and they prefer not to have! I put the question which is better to have illusions or not ?
Life can be so cruel we all need something which can get us out from the gray week days!
I wonder is is better to have illusions or is it better to live all the time in reality ? I think if we can't put down our problems for a while the soon all of us will got mad!
I really don't know ! I'm curious what people around here think about it ! Do you agree or not?