Looking for some peace

Lately you feel too much down. But you can't help it. This place started to be your hiding place from the depression around you, from the things people feel. You wanted to make them see the advices you give, now it turned to be hell's gate. And again you come to spread your sparkling pain.

The castel you built up, so easily, so full of hope, with pure passion now is falling appart. Easily but really quickly. And leaves your heart an open sore. And you love to watch that picture. The picture of the fading life. The picture of your own deep unclearness.
The castel used to be a place where you belongt. That's past of course. Now you're all down , deep digged in the path of darkness. And for everyone's strange eyes you seem to enjoy it like hell. You enjoy every moment of pure sanity, of perfect pain.

The pain as always just runs trough your vains. You slowly try to do everything to wash away your thoughts. They seem far from your head. now you don't want to change miracously all your life. You get selfish deep down and you just want to kill your heart even more. If we talk about pain.. let it be just wonderful, crimson and passionate.

It's like self harm. And as long as you feel deadly afraid of cutting, hurting or suicide you just make you fall to pieces. These pieces will only be put together when the sun is going to burn again. So equal to nothing.
Music is playing in your mind on and on... each song you hear kind of kills a little part of you. Some for not having something , others for having it. Deep inside your wounded heart. Emotionally attached to pain. What a pleasure. To make all darkness come around and collect all your fears. To wipe away all your blood. To make you see the falling. You only love to make yourself feel all the misery. When you start to feel the effect you feel horrible.

The effect is amazing. You’re in affinity with the dark, mysterious loneliness. With the master of hurts, the PAIN. Oh, now you feel like killing everything around even more. And you can do it. Cause no one can see you. No one ever cares. So why would things be different ever.

You feel like enjoying your own torture. Now that you harmed your life so hard you feel proud. Sad but true, cause there is nothing you could be proud of.You can’t stop the hurt. Like blood is running trough all your body, from the fingers to the toes. The warm crystal tears run down again. OH, how you love them. The salty taste of them, the clear which they bring by washing away all the fog from your eyes. The deep nothingness along you. The lonely life painted with broken hearts.

And you’re all alone. As always. And even if you feel like this, you still need a way out. But you don’t speak out. You just leave it that way. You just want it all to end. You got fed up. And I see, I see your heart, soul, and pain. And you feel like screaming, and tears come to your eyes cause you can’t get out a sound. You suffer all alone in the silence my angel. The angel of purity and innocence who fallen in mud.

If anyone could come and wash away your pain. If they could clear all your sins away ... they’d make you perfect and beautiful. Candles burn slowly, they are waiting for you to kill them. But you still stay there and silently die near them.

In a way i understand why you kill yourself so much inside. I understand how is to make yourself bleed in order to feel something. To feel so down, under the hell’s gates just not to feel numb.

You’re afraid of loosing yourself. Darling wake up from the nightmare. You already did loose yourself. Please say you can do it. But you just hang there all alone... dieing.. and you don’t feel like ever waking up.

Shrivelling Rose

Cold blood is running trough your veins. Totally opposite of the passionate warm almost burning pain you feel. How can two so deep things be so different from each other. You say it’s unfair. Darling you are right. This life , which is painted by watercolours and was washed away. And still remained around you the darkness of your soul. The black of the darkness surrounded the lights and now swallowed them all. Of course , you wonder how was that possible. You seem to get even more confused. You know what, that’s the point of it. Explaining something which should help, just makes you even more fallen in the land of nowhere.

But let’s see forward. Let’s draw the lines of the shining pain of your life. You look in the mirror. What you see it’s damn scary. A ghost with broken soul. And sadly no matter how hard you try you still couldn’t learn to fly with your golden broken wings. And you struggle , struggle with each memory lane, with each subconscious thought . Your mind is driving you crazy. You can’t step out of the world of your depressing mind.

You slowly start to hear a melody , calming sound from far. But it’s like an endless circle. It starts over and over again. The calming sound as you wait turns to loud bothering drum beating. Well, believe it or not, that’s your cold blood’s sound while beating in you half dead , half alive heart. The beating gets louder and louder, your heart is so beating so hard that it almost jumps out of your chest.

You can hardly breath. Again, this bright night is different then the others, but you can’t help feeling like this. You fall even more down each time you try to catch my hand. I shout your name, and get no answer. Just a matter of time till I hear your tearjearking scream. You really are falling and you can’t reduce speed. I finally hear as your heavy dark tears hit the ground. It’s so scary to see you that way.

You probably wonder what I think now. But to be honest I know everything. I see and feel what you feel, I hear your thoughts in my ears, my head is blowing up from just looking at you. And you , you’re still alive having all those breathtaking memories, outstanding cries.

You can’t see me, I’m your guardian angle’s soul’s shadow. I collect your tears , turn them to diamonds, and keep them for the day when I can sell them and buy happiness of their price. I’m so sober when I see you this way, but I fly around you, I keep you in my wings. If you fall down I’ll always stay on the edge of your heart telling you there is still life, even when the dark smoke is going down on you. He sent me to protect you, and I shall never give up on you. I love you. You’re my shrivelling flower and i’m going to turn you to my crimson clothed rose.

Some lyric quotes i love

'When all we see is misery Will you still believe in me ?'
- Hammerfall -Dreams come true


'Dreams are my saviors, save me now
'Cos I know I'm falling'
-Bullet For My Valentine- Road to Nowhere


'There is more that meets the eyes,
I see the soul that is inside'
-Avril Lavigne-Sk8ter Boy


'Candles burn slowly, Flame shines so brightly
Light in the darkness, Save me from madness again'
-Bullet For My Vallentine-Road to Nowhere


'You feel so lonely and ragged
You lay here broken and naked
My love is just waiting
To clothe you in crimson roses'
-Skillet- Whispers in the Dark


'If you give me your hand
I'll help you hold on'
-Skillet- Last Night


'This is the last night you'll spend alone ,
look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be'
-Skillet- Last Night


'Strange how mind changes time and time again.
Things once important now pale to comparison.'
-Queensryche- Hand on heart


'Let me be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight'
-Sarah Mclachlan - Angel

Perfection of falling down

It seemed to be an ok evening after a lot of mess behind you. Nothing seemed to crash your optimism. But suddelnly as you look around, as you see the people, as you listen to the voices, suddenly you get to the point to realize that you're all alone in a crowd of strangers. People you once knew today seem to be you're farest aquaintances, maybe people you never actually saw, just heared about them, things which might be true, but might be also fals.


You see a sea of pale faces, narrow word streets comming torwards you, but you can't let them in, you can't pay attention, you can't think of any of them, you can't listen, you can't even see :some strangers might be talking. The only thing you feel that the deep blue loneliness seems to get darker and darker in your eyes. Next moment you feel the river is comming to run wet, you feel that the tears of the passionate pain which you feel inside suddenly come to run down on your cheeks.


You don't need to fear.. no one is going to notice it, they never did, why would they now? But your ironic shyness is not on your side, it never was . You start to feel afraid, unsafely anxious. You want to escape from this world of illusions, fake people and never mentioned realities. You can't decide what to do, you're turning crimson red , still not noticed by anyone. Everything is fading into darkness around you, the lights turn down, but just before your wet eyes, you can barely take the picture in front of them, you have to close them, you can't help your strong reaction of closing them. But that won't help, you just come to realize that reality overcomes you even more : You're living a lie.


You're so angry, you don't know if you want to be noticed or not, you just want to feel better but it seems equal to impossible. You can't help being more and more afraid. The dark of the loneliness and mess around you makes you wnat to hide, makes you want to run away nowhere but far from your toughts and feelings. Emotions which seem to be killed for ages, but still have passionate effect on you present moments.


You start to feel hilarious... How the hell nobody, but nobody can't see the pain inside you, the sorrow in your eyes, the marks of shame on your face? Is that so hidden, or are you so insignificant? Can't they just look at you only for a second?
You get frustrated... you don't want to look at them anymore, they are just gosths from the road to hell which you were guided on. Even worse , they are dead gosths ... you are one of those people they have to guide... GUIDE? They do nothing, they make you struggle in the middle of nowhere, wanting to hit you with hidden words, untold secrets . They make you fail between the known and the unknown, there's no way back, no way forward.


You start to feel like you're fading away, you ran out, you slam the door behind you with the hars tought of never openning it again. As you get out you start to swallow the air. The smell of wet , cold night seems to give you some peace between your toughts of pain. Maybe in this moment the painfull toughts run trough your body and mark each part of it.


You feel ok ,' cause you're out of the fake reality.. but you can't stop your barin's work. It gives you memories about your loneliness, about your beautiful struggle.. about the the glorious emptiness you feel inside. You are bleeding.. but no one can see it.. crying overcomes you the same harmonic way as it used to.
You don't believe in anything right now.. neither in your dreams, nor in you. You as person , you're the best friend and the biggest enemy of yourself.
You just wonder lonely as a cloud, and you feel like dieing, when the grey clouds crash into each other they burst.. you're such a shame that you burst alone.. and give the neverendless rain.


You'd like to feel nothing. Funny that you're empty all nside, but you hate how much you can feel. And the worst thing ever, which kills your soul, breakes your black wings is that you wander all LONELY.


Sitting down at the edge of something much too deep makes you see that nothing can kill your soul, it is already killed. And the angel of white lands won't ever reach your hand..you are not angry anymore.. the crimson blood of your emotions has been flowing away.. down the deep nothingness inside of you.


Now you just love to stare at the perfect teardrops from your dark eyes, which seem to have no voice at all when crashing with the deepness.


Everything feels the same, so does you.. right now you feel exhausted to run away.. you just wait for something to happen but nothing will broke the deep, suffocating dark of the night.. loneliness is on your side

In my darkest hours

"To Where The Skies Are Blue" by Deadlock, album Wolves.



lyric:
Sun goes down once again
While I sit here and feel the tears
Running down my cheeks
No I am not afraid of the dark
But the darker it gets
The more I realize
That there is no one to depend on
No one to believe in

And so I wait to die here all alone (all alone)
Like the daylight dies while it is fading away (fading away)
Because nobody knows for sure that the sun will burn
Through that cold night once more
Through that cold night once more

To where the skies are blue

So I pray for someone
To come and make my life seem like
It's still worth livin' it
So I pray for you to come

And so I wait to die here all alone (all alone)
Like the daylight dies while it is fading away (fading away)
Because nobody knows for sure that the sun will burn
Through that cold night once more
Through that cold night once more

But still the hardest things to say
Are the words that I mean the most
Come on angel, say that you
Love me and nothing in this
World will ever scare me again
Take me to where the skies are blue, always blue, always blue

And so I wait to die here all alone
Like the daylight dies while it is fading away
Because nobody knows for sure that the sun will burn
Through that cold night once more

The main idea of the song is not suicide.. but waiting till the end.. till death...
it's sad because even if death comes when you're 70 you'll still be alone..
'take me to where the skies are blue'- is a wonderful song , about real , true feelings of lonely people.. of people who can't take loneliness easy.. for those you have no one to depend on
music can be a great consolation and can help each of us express our hidden feelings .

Beauty of sadness

I sit here in silence. Everything seems so peaceful, nothing seems to disturb my deep loneliness. My tears run down fast on my cheeks, they taste salty. There is no sound.. just the crash of my tear drops on the floor. Soon it turns to be a small splash. It's like a rain in which you are all alone, the streets are empty, there isn't a soul, everything feels like time stopped. I start to see why i feel, i close my eyes, and my heart and soul reflects me a picture. Picture of my inner world. Picture of this crimson pain. Pain which can't be seen from outside.. but it can be surely felt from inside. It's night, the big Moon is giving me light, it's guiding me in this place of broken dreams. I start to wander on my heart's narrow streets. It's a long cubbled street..and it seems endless. It is empty, lonely. The coulds are covering the sky above me, and they wash away all the sunshine. This place seems peaceful. How can't it be?! It is so empty. I finally see a corner, as i trun this corner i notice that the rain is not fast anymore, in fact real slow. The corner shows me finally a house. A small one, as I pass by I look in, what I see? Better wouldn't even look in.. i see a family, driffted apart. A mom with cries in her eyes. A dad full of anger, and a daughter full of sadness hiden all inside. I just wonder what they might feel.. and slowly realize that i passed in the small house of my soul dedicated to my family. I wonder what made me change this town so much. There was a time when it was a cool place, with sunny streets and houses with flower gardens and people.. all cheerful and noisy. Now.. that things changed so much, my town feels like dieing. It's lost, and the silence just kills me even more. I pass away near the house and while the rain starts to fall again fast i can barely see in what direction i'm going. I wander for ages till i get to see a girl and a man. They seem to be ok, they walk near each other, i come from back. When they hear my footsteps they turn to me, i see tears in her eyes, and the man looks emotionless. The girl passes near me.. without even saying bye she leaves and they choose different ways. The girl runs away, the man goes to meet a woman, he seems to feel so ok. I go after the girl and ask her who was the person , she only replies my dad disappointed me. I feel embrased. I wish i could help her, help her go away from this place. I wander and wander but there seems to be no way out. Endless road.. in the world of nowhere. I find the key, i come out and lock the door. My tears turned to a big splash. I feel scared, scared of life and scared of death. I saw life and i saw the road to hell. And all that inside me. Inside the most clear and innocent place of a body. I feel like falling, everything around me is loosing their shape, i feel afraid of tomorrow, of the next day..but i feel afraid of this emptiness.I feel that it's inside. I want to scream, but no matter how hard i try i can't be heared. My aquintances are passing by and they don't even notice i'm suffering.. But slowly i feel peace.. peace enough to sleep.. slowly i fall asleep.. and then i finally feel ok, my dreams lead me to a wonderland, where i can feel love, care ,understanding and joy...things i don't have in reality. Beauty of sadness.. the long walk in my soul, the pain inside.. I'm falling apart

my dear friend

So I can see that i haven't wrote for more than 5 months.... shame on me :)
Ok.. i give up for the moment to change or help the world... i wish to present one of my friends....
Her name is Loneliness :)
She is always near me.... i can't get rid of her .. she always comes and leaves.. she thinks she caught my soul and she controls my life... who knows maybe she is right !!!
It's like a step sister who wants to bother you all along.. She really enjoys making me cry or making me nervous... She wakes me up in the night and tries to take my dreams away...
the only person who she can't fight with are my dreams... They keep me alive, cause if i would let with her on my own i'm sure she would try to kill me :(
sometimes things happen but we don't really know why.. confusion is in my empty soul... love, hate ,hope, loneliness they are all living in my soul.. but they all seem weak to win above the other ones........ They only show me how to be hurt inside
But i promised myself that one day i He will kill her.. and that He should come soon to save me from myself and from her .. He will surely come :)

Unconditional true love

What does this mean for us ? what does it mean in the 21-th century ? I really don't know!
I'm so sad when I think about this topic. it's hard to think about it. maybe the person near you doesn't love you maybe hates you. Who knows.
Money kills love and sadness also. I really would like to see in this world everyone giving unconditional true love. Why we can't love each other without conditions? Why love can't be there in each home.. in each place in each moment. It's so hard if I think about those people who are unhappy sad or depressed.. they are victim of this world victim of the 21th century. Maybe the answer would be love ... We ain't ready to give as much love as we should and others ain't ready to give as much love as we need. Love and understanding is the key of everything. Is the key of life , soul, happiness, heart and simply the humanity . We are all victims of society...... ! There are people who are loved and who can't give unconditional true lovr. We all should because we never know how long is our journey in this earth. You never know if you see the other person again. Everything is full of unknown. Love ..... we all should learn the lesson for a life even if we don't get love we should give because it may happen that once the person will change and will give love.
Maybe this is still a dream ... but our society needs love and we can't be human without love and careing.
What do you guys think about this? Why others just refuse to give love .. why are they afraid of it???

about help

What do you guys think about help??
I'm sure that most of you need it ... if not in this moment but in some moments you felt you need help. Help is something you can get and you can give . I'm sure that in each of ours life were moments when you were afraid to ask for help.. when you thought it would be easier to handle it alone . Well it isn't true. Anytime we need help we should ask for it. It isn't good to make everything alone. Don't be afraid to ask for help.. don't be afraid of being judged . we all need help sometimes and we all give help sometimes. the best is to ask for it .... Maybe we just need someone who can guide us ... who can show us the right way .. maybe we need a simple idea . who knows. People are human beings who are not perfect and who really need help . How many times others ask you to help them ? Did you? i guess none of us did it all the time they were asked to .... We ain't perfect as i said before But we never know when we need help so we should help others because they may help us either :) maybe this is a fairytale and only a dream about the perfect society but who knows... It could happen that if we help others and learn to ask for help this world could really be a better place to live :)
If you want to give some help or you need help there is a really nice site www.help.com

Memory.....Memories

I am the memory ! I am your past present and future! You may ask why?
Look there is the reason! I am the past because I am all the things you want to remember and you don't want to ! I am your present because you live from the things you did in the past! i am your future because you can't leave me no matter how hard you would try!
You may say I'm a bad thing .....yes but I can be a very nice thing to ! You need to go on with your life ! you can't go on with it till you are busy with forgetting me ! Me the memory can be denied but never deleted from your mind! maybe you shouldn't try to forget you should try to live with me!

So i go every day to your heart and soul visit them very carefully to see how much can i hurt you or how much can I make you happy! But at almost every time I open the door of your heart everything turns to dark in you ! You really want to get me out of your mind! You can't and that's why you are crying so much!

Flower soul

The nature and the human being can't exist one without the other! That's why i think this can be a great definition of the soul!
Our soul is the most innocent most clear and most honest part of us:) I guess our soul is a big , colorful and beautiful flower! As the flower our soul too can die or can feel bad! If you are sad you don't care about your soul and it gets dark and little! If you don't take care of a flower it also gets gray. Without water as your soul without energy and happiness is starving !When you are happy your soul is happy too it is just flourishing it is beautiful and it is opened like a little nice scented flower!
Innocence and beauty comes from heart and soul as well unconditional true love :)

True Love

What people from today know about this subject ???? Is there anymore today ? Can we be only small little person and give unconditional true love? Can we say i forgive you without doubt?

I really still believe we can ... but the world is getting worse and worse ...money ... terrorism and things like that are against true love ! We should love each other we should count on each other we should bring happiness to each others heart!

Put yourself a question why are we in this world ? Which is the most eternal feeling ? Love without any doubt! Now if you feel you agree with my article call someone who you love or who is waiting you to accept their apologize! For a moment try to give unconditional true love! make the world a better place! Take part of if! Don't let the money and terrorism kill your heart and soul! make the ice melt and throw away the stone from your hearts place! Please for the sake of your life and world remember and never forget to love! It is the feeling all of us should count on ! God said give love and you will get love ! It isn't hard to do ! :)

I really hope that you feel how important this is !

Live your life in peace ... understand others .... forget the war .. forget money and put on the first place of your heart the LOVE and let it guide it!

What do you feel reading this article ! I really want to know!

illusions

I was wondering if they are good or bad?
To be a day dreamer , to run after illusions! I think it can be good you can create yourself a kind of dream world and you can find your place in it . You can have a dream an illusion which can cheer you up or can make you happy. Maybe everyone should have illusions ! The most of us are afraid of not reaching their dreams and illusions and they prefer not to have! I put the question which is better to have illusions or not ?
Life can be so cruel we all need something which can get us out from the gray week days!
I wonder is is better to have illusions or is it better to live all the time in reality ? I think if we can't put down our problems for a while the soon all of us will got mad!
I really don't know ! I'm curious what people around here think about it ! Do you agree or not?

hold it all inside??

WHY?
Hold it all inside ! Don't even show that you are weak! Don't even show that you are sad!
We all say these things like they were sin , you shouldn't let other know what you fell! But i still keep asking why?
Why is that better? There is no answer ! We don't show others what we feel we want to be stronger better than the other! whatever .... We are lying our self and everyone around us! No matter how hard , strong and happy we are i must ask you what is in our soul?
We judge those who are weak or sad! We are wrong not them ! They are honest we aren't! Why means that we are perfect if we pretend to feel ok and smile when we want to cry?
Pretending and pretending till we will got mad!
I'm really curious why we judge for example a man who is crying ? Why we don't understand that person who is honestly saying that a broke up hurt him?
Is there a law or order that we must be happy and strong? No there isn't so don't hold it all inside show that you are happy, sad, amazed, lost etc. We are all human beings so we should act like this! Remember no one is perfect!
Do you agree?

Nothing special.....

These days i was thinking about a good article , the truth is i don't really get something like that!
yesterday one of my friends told me what is love !
LOVE is a word which is made from 4 letters!
A word which contains 2 vowels and 2 consonants !
Its also a noun !
An finally it contains 2 fools in it who make it up!
It can sound weird but it is true! Sometimes life is as easy :)!
With this article i would like to show you that sometimes life is very easy! I know that we are always making our life more and more hard or complicated! Thats our duty !
Sometimes we make something more complicated because we are in a world which is not very simple! Even if a situation is easy we can't believe it so we make harder because that's the normal! ( It isn't normal just we are used of that)!
I think in life even if its unbelievable there are some things and situations which are easy, nice! These situations or problems can be solved in a short time and simple way! We don't need to find better and better solutions because the most easy solution can be right in front of us!
People is used to forget these things and it's better if someone is reminding them about!
Before you do anything think about it clear and don't forget to get a quickly solution and not a complicated one it's the best you can do !
Am I right?

Friendship for everyone.....

Last days I was thinking about friendship that how beautiful it is! This is the only relation which is mutual, and it’s made by free choice! We don’t born with it, we make it totally! It depends on us and on our faith and help! It doesn’t mean something about money or about taking advantage of someone ! Or maybe it must be like that , unfortunately sometimes is based on money that’s our cold world! Whatever lets talk about a friendship based on mutually patience, help and love of course! When you start a friendship in your heart there is always that feeling that you know that person for a very long time ago before you meet them! Its something like déjà vu !We don’t even know why we feel like that or why we are so so close to that person or what is the quality of that person which makes them so special! That’s beautiful too in a friendship the thing that you cant name those things which makes it so glamorous!

Life can be so cruel and we are just innocent people who need help and courage to make a step forward! In those moments a friend who is a “ friend in need is a friend indeed “ I mean a real tell-anything friend can help you very much! I read a very nice quote yesterday “ Friends are God’s way to take care of us”! I agree with this quote maybe its really true: friendship is the most clearest and innocent relationship in the world! I hope everybody has got enough friends in this “ cruel world” and in each person's life there is minimum one best friend!

What do you think Am I right ????

The other world........

Yesterday a friend of mine sent me an invitation to a public site . First i liked very much the site: new people , fun, games, blog many great things ! Everything was great still the minute i opened a topic :Let's talk"! Guess what i saw there : people with many kind of problems ! Problems like : disappointment in love, lost in the world, life without dreams! I was amazed ! A totally different world then what I'm talking about here , an other world then what must be ! A totally different world of mine and of the world I'm living in! Suddenly my positive way of thinking about problems and bad moments fade away ! I realized that those people need help! I realized that when i walk out the door a very different world is waiting me ! A world where hope and faith are suddenly lost! I must put the question "WHY?" ! But there I have no answer or maybe just one: This is the world we are living in , it's unfair but who cares? ! It's full of negative things but what can we do?! Living in this world trying to think positive, trying to help those who need ! even if this world is opposite of mine I can't deny that i like to live in it ! I have in my heart the hope that one day will be better! maybe I'm wrong , maybe not ! It's just one of the things I can do to make it better! It's just nice and peaceful to think that will be a better place to live!
John Lennon~ Imagine

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one


What do you think ? ???

when you think everything is gone bad

Sometimes i really feel that everything is going bad ! That's making me feel so small and so exhausted in this world ! Those moments are so hard ! I guess everyone has got moments like this !
Sometimes we can be so happy and everything is going right ! In those moments we know everything about our life we are the leader of our life !
But what happens when loose control in our life ? What happens when we feel so exhausted and so lost in this world? Can we think clear ? Can we think about what is the best in our life? I doubt it!
I can just hope that in those moments i can think about those many things which made me once happy , which made me appreciate my life! The best way it would be to make a short trip on our mind between our memories and stop in each moment when we find a very nice memory! :) Surely will make us feel much better!
Some situations for example : When you broke up with the person you love :instead of crying think about that how beautiful it was your relation with that person , remember the nice moments spent together! When you loose a friend ( He/She moved ) Don't think about missing them ! Think about the time spent together , think about that you will meet them again :) (you will visit them)! When you feel everything is going bad and you have no reason in life think about those who love you., think about those who need you ! If you fight with someone or if you are upset from someone : think about that you love that person and learn to say sorry and to forgive ! We often say things we really don't mean !
So when you are totally lost in this big world then never forget that you have people around you who love you , never forget that after bad moments can come only good moments ! Never forget that you must get over everything no matter how hard it is ! Just keep your head up and say i can do that ('cause life is unfair but we must live in it)! And finally never forget that everything can be solved ! Music , reading or some tea and sleeping can help you also in those moments ! :)

What do you think? Send me comment with your opinion !

Evanescence my immortal! When you loose true love....

I guess love can be the most glamorous and painful feeling !

"This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase"!
And as the quote says "love is like heaven but it can hurt like hell" ! As longs as you are near the person you love everything seems so easy everything seems a dream! You feel you can reach the impossible!
When you loose your true love everything fades to gray ! Nothings real and everything feels like a nightmare ! You just would like to forget everything and turn back the time live those moments again and never wake up !
"When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me" !

You would give everything you would do everything for him/her love !
UNFORTUNATELY THIS CAN BE DONE:(

Life,Love Dream

Life Love Dream !
Every day we are wondering about life ! Can we make it better can we make it a better place to live the world? Do you know what i think ???
I think we can make the world a better place to live ! Sure we can !
I think we can make our life much better ! I wrote for title three things separate things but i guess they can't exist alone ! 'Cos there is no love without life and there is no love without dreaming! Do you agree?I hope so!
Think about this three things : can you live without them ? Are you sad when you end a relationship when you love someone ( YES you are), Are you disappointed when your dreams didn't come true?(YES you are)!
So conclusion there is no life without love and dreams! You must be lead by your dreams ! This will make your life more easier ! This will encourage you to get over everything ! This will help you to continue your way ( life) !
Love ??? Another very special another special and precious thing in your life ! Can you imagine your life without love? I doubt! Everyone needs someone beside him/ her who can be always near and loves him/ her as much as needs ! BUT why to imagine our life without love or dreams ? We are able to love and to dream and this is the answer for my first question "HOW CAN WE MAKE OUR LIFE BETTER" ! With dreaming and with love ! 'Cos love can win everything and dreams can come true!(Thx God)
So never give up thinking positive about life about dreams, about love! Think about little beauties of life ! Even if you are sad : think about the future, think about that you must go on no matter what will ever happen! Live your life with as much energy as you can !
If you feel you are exhausted call a friend and say to him/ her that its special for you and life is beautifuler with him / her!:) Do you heard that Life and world is beautiful ? Then believe it cause its really beautiful!:)

I believe that life is beautiful as many songs , poems are saying! I trust the world! I enjoy every moment of my life even when I'm sad!

The picture for a very special person ! Please leave some comments ! Do you agree???

Missing him........

Yesterday i heard a kind of quote ... it was the quote that was going so right with my feelings!

If you think missing me it's hard than start missing you!

Yes it goes well with my feelings because i miss him so so much ! I don't know how to continue my life ! We broke up on Thursday and now it's Monday....I thought it will be easier and easier with time but just now i realized that as days are passing by i miss him more and more each day !

Right now i feel i must be strong and get over it .....I told myself that i must be .....I'm tired of crying ! I want to get over the things quickly but i CAN'T!
I feel I'm loving him more and more each day , i feel I'm missing him more and more each day!

I have to get over this to make a step forward ......It's so hard ! I feel the time is stopped ! Like i couldn't control my life ! Like i won't be the leader of my own life!
Hope tomorrow will be easier ! Hope to get a way to get out of this situation !
See u :)