Memory.....Memories

I am the memory ! I am your past present and future! You may ask why?
Look there is the reason! I am the past because I am all the things you want to remember and you don't want to ! I am your present because you live from the things you did in the past! i am your future because you can't leave me no matter how hard you would try!
You may say I'm a bad thing .....yes but I can be a very nice thing to ! You need to go on with your life ! you can't go on with it till you are busy with forgetting me ! Me the memory can be denied but never deleted from your mind! maybe you shouldn't try to forget you should try to live with me!

So i go every day to your heart and soul visit them very carefully to see how much can i hurt you or how much can I make you happy! But at almost every time I open the door of your heart everything turns to dark in you ! You really want to get me out of your mind! You can't and that's why you are crying so much!

Flower soul

The nature and the human being can't exist one without the other! That's why i think this can be a great definition of the soul!
Our soul is the most innocent most clear and most honest part of us:) I guess our soul is a big , colorful and beautiful flower! As the flower our soul too can die or can feel bad! If you are sad you don't care about your soul and it gets dark and little! If you don't take care of a flower it also gets gray. Without water as your soul without energy and happiness is starving !When you are happy your soul is happy too it is just flourishing it is beautiful and it is opened like a little nice scented flower!
Innocence and beauty comes from heart and soul as well unconditional true love :)

True Love

What people from today know about this subject ???? Is there anymore today ? Can we be only small little person and give unconditional true love? Can we say i forgive you without doubt?

I really still believe we can ... but the world is getting worse and worse ...money ... terrorism and things like that are against true love ! We should love each other we should count on each other we should bring happiness to each others heart!

Put yourself a question why are we in this world ? Which is the most eternal feeling ? Love without any doubt! Now if you feel you agree with my article call someone who you love or who is waiting you to accept their apologize! For a moment try to give unconditional true love! make the world a better place! Take part of if! Don't let the money and terrorism kill your heart and soul! make the ice melt and throw away the stone from your hearts place! Please for the sake of your life and world remember and never forget to love! It is the feeling all of us should count on ! God said give love and you will get love ! It isn't hard to do ! :)

I really hope that you feel how important this is !

Live your life in peace ... understand others .... forget the war .. forget money and put on the first place of your heart the LOVE and let it guide it!

What do you feel reading this article ! I really want to know!

illusions

I was wondering if they are good or bad?
To be a day dreamer , to run after illusions! I think it can be good you can create yourself a kind of dream world and you can find your place in it . You can have a dream an illusion which can cheer you up or can make you happy. Maybe everyone should have illusions ! The most of us are afraid of not reaching their dreams and illusions and they prefer not to have! I put the question which is better to have illusions or not ?
Life can be so cruel we all need something which can get us out from the gray week days!
I wonder is is better to have illusions or is it better to live all the time in reality ? I think if we can't put down our problems for a while the soon all of us will got mad!
I really don't know ! I'm curious what people around here think about it ! Do you agree or not?

hold it all inside??

WHY?
Hold it all inside ! Don't even show that you are weak! Don't even show that you are sad!
We all say these things like they were sin , you shouldn't let other know what you fell! But i still keep asking why?
Why is that better? There is no answer ! We don't show others what we feel we want to be stronger better than the other! whatever .... We are lying our self and everyone around us! No matter how hard , strong and happy we are i must ask you what is in our soul?
We judge those who are weak or sad! We are wrong not them ! They are honest we aren't! Why means that we are perfect if we pretend to feel ok and smile when we want to cry?
Pretending and pretending till we will got mad!
I'm really curious why we judge for example a man who is crying ? Why we don't understand that person who is honestly saying that a broke up hurt him?
Is there a law or order that we must be happy and strong? No there isn't so don't hold it all inside show that you are happy, sad, amazed, lost etc. We are all human beings so we should act like this! Remember no one is perfect!
Do you agree?

Nothing special.....

These days i was thinking about a good article , the truth is i don't really get something like that!
yesterday one of my friends told me what is love !
LOVE is a word which is made from 4 letters!
A word which contains 2 vowels and 2 consonants !
Its also a noun !
An finally it contains 2 fools in it who make it up!
It can sound weird but it is true! Sometimes life is as easy :)!
With this article i would like to show you that sometimes life is very easy! I know that we are always making our life more and more hard or complicated! Thats our duty !
Sometimes we make something more complicated because we are in a world which is not very simple! Even if a situation is easy we can't believe it so we make harder because that's the normal! ( It isn't normal just we are used of that)!
I think in life even if its unbelievable there are some things and situations which are easy, nice! These situations or problems can be solved in a short time and simple way! We don't need to find better and better solutions because the most easy solution can be right in front of us!
People is used to forget these things and it's better if someone is reminding them about!
Before you do anything think about it clear and don't forget to get a quickly solution and not a complicated one it's the best you can do !
Am I right?

Friendship for everyone.....

Last days I was thinking about friendship that how beautiful it is! This is the only relation which is mutual, and it’s made by free choice! We don’t born with it, we make it totally! It depends on us and on our faith and help! It doesn’t mean something about money or about taking advantage of someone ! Or maybe it must be like that , unfortunately sometimes is based on money that’s our cold world! Whatever lets talk about a friendship based on mutually patience, help and love of course! When you start a friendship in your heart there is always that feeling that you know that person for a very long time ago before you meet them! Its something like déjà vu !We don’t even know why we feel like that or why we are so so close to that person or what is the quality of that person which makes them so special! That’s beautiful too in a friendship the thing that you cant name those things which makes it so glamorous!

Life can be so cruel and we are just innocent people who need help and courage to make a step forward! In those moments a friend who is a “ friend in need is a friend indeed “ I mean a real tell-anything friend can help you very much! I read a very nice quote yesterday “ Friends are God’s way to take care of us”! I agree with this quote maybe its really true: friendship is the most clearest and innocent relationship in the world! I hope everybody has got enough friends in this “ cruel world” and in each person's life there is minimum one best friend!

What do you think Am I right ????

The other world........

Yesterday a friend of mine sent me an invitation to a public site . First i liked very much the site: new people , fun, games, blog many great things ! Everything was great still the minute i opened a topic :Let's talk"! Guess what i saw there : people with many kind of problems ! Problems like : disappointment in love, lost in the world, life without dreams! I was amazed ! A totally different world then what I'm talking about here , an other world then what must be ! A totally different world of mine and of the world I'm living in! Suddenly my positive way of thinking about problems and bad moments fade away ! I realized that those people need help! I realized that when i walk out the door a very different world is waiting me ! A world where hope and faith are suddenly lost! I must put the question "WHY?" ! But there I have no answer or maybe just one: This is the world we are living in , it's unfair but who cares? ! It's full of negative things but what can we do?! Living in this world trying to think positive, trying to help those who need ! even if this world is opposite of mine I can't deny that i like to live in it ! I have in my heart the hope that one day will be better! maybe I'm wrong , maybe not ! It's just one of the things I can do to make it better! It's just nice and peaceful to think that will be a better place to live!
John Lennon~ Imagine

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one


What do you think ? ???

when you think everything is gone bad

Sometimes i really feel that everything is going bad ! That's making me feel so small and so exhausted in this world ! Those moments are so hard ! I guess everyone has got moments like this !
Sometimes we can be so happy and everything is going right ! In those moments we know everything about our life we are the leader of our life !
But what happens when loose control in our life ? What happens when we feel so exhausted and so lost in this world? Can we think clear ? Can we think about what is the best in our life? I doubt it!
I can just hope that in those moments i can think about those many things which made me once happy , which made me appreciate my life! The best way it would be to make a short trip on our mind between our memories and stop in each moment when we find a very nice memory! :) Surely will make us feel much better!
Some situations for example : When you broke up with the person you love :instead of crying think about that how beautiful it was your relation with that person , remember the nice moments spent together! When you loose a friend ( He/She moved ) Don't think about missing them ! Think about the time spent together , think about that you will meet them again :) (you will visit them)! When you feel everything is going bad and you have no reason in life think about those who love you., think about those who need you ! If you fight with someone or if you are upset from someone : think about that you love that person and learn to say sorry and to forgive ! We often say things we really don't mean !
So when you are totally lost in this big world then never forget that you have people around you who love you , never forget that after bad moments can come only good moments ! Never forget that you must get over everything no matter how hard it is ! Just keep your head up and say i can do that ('cause life is unfair but we must live in it)! And finally never forget that everything can be solved ! Music , reading or some tea and sleeping can help you also in those moments ! :)

What do you think? Send me comment with your opinion !

Evanescence my immortal! When you loose true love....

I guess love can be the most glamorous and painful feeling !

"This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase"!
And as the quote says "love is like heaven but it can hurt like hell" ! As longs as you are near the person you love everything seems so easy everything seems a dream! You feel you can reach the impossible!
When you loose your true love everything fades to gray ! Nothings real and everything feels like a nightmare ! You just would like to forget everything and turn back the time live those moments again and never wake up !
"When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me" !

You would give everything you would do everything for him/her love !
UNFORTUNATELY THIS CAN BE DONE:(

Life,Love Dream

Life Love Dream !
Every day we are wondering about life ! Can we make it better can we make it a better place to live the world? Do you know what i think ???
I think we can make the world a better place to live ! Sure we can !
I think we can make our life much better ! I wrote for title three things separate things but i guess they can't exist alone ! 'Cos there is no love without life and there is no love without dreaming! Do you agree?I hope so!
Think about this three things : can you live without them ? Are you sad when you end a relationship when you love someone ( YES you are), Are you disappointed when your dreams didn't come true?(YES you are)!
So conclusion there is no life without love and dreams! You must be lead by your dreams ! This will make your life more easier ! This will encourage you to get over everything ! This will help you to continue your way ( life) !
Love ??? Another very special another special and precious thing in your life ! Can you imagine your life without love? I doubt! Everyone needs someone beside him/ her who can be always near and loves him/ her as much as needs ! BUT why to imagine our life without love or dreams ? We are able to love and to dream and this is the answer for my first question "HOW CAN WE MAKE OUR LIFE BETTER" ! With dreaming and with love ! 'Cos love can win everything and dreams can come true!(Thx God)
So never give up thinking positive about life about dreams, about love! Think about little beauties of life ! Even if you are sad : think about the future, think about that you must go on no matter what will ever happen! Live your life with as much energy as you can !
If you feel you are exhausted call a friend and say to him/ her that its special for you and life is beautifuler with him / her!:) Do you heard that Life and world is beautiful ? Then believe it cause its really beautiful!:)

I believe that life is beautiful as many songs , poems are saying! I trust the world! I enjoy every moment of my life even when I'm sad!

The picture for a very special person ! Please leave some comments ! Do you agree???

Missing him........

Yesterday i heard a kind of quote ... it was the quote that was going so right with my feelings!

If you think missing me it's hard than start missing you!

Yes it goes well with my feelings because i miss him so so much ! I don't know how to continue my life ! We broke up on Thursday and now it's Monday....I thought it will be easier and easier with time but just now i realized that as days are passing by i miss him more and more each day !

Right now i feel i must be strong and get over it .....I told myself that i must be .....I'm tired of crying ! I want to get over the things quickly but i CAN'T!
I feel I'm loving him more and more each day , i feel I'm missing him more and more each day!

I have to get over this to make a step forward ......It's so hard ! I feel the time is stopped ! Like i couldn't control my life ! Like i won't be the leader of my own life!
Hope tomorrow will be easier ! Hope to get a way to get out of this situation !
See u :)

Merry Christmas?

Christmas where is love and understanding...........whatever............. it would be nice if it would be like that

the little beauties of life

little wonders .......small things........ little beauties .......
Why are they in our life? They are in our life to make it nice, beautiful , amazing !They are the light in the darkness ! In each moment of life they are present and never let us fall down completely! Even in pain , even in sorrow , even in broke up there is the hope , there are some little things which gave us energy, help us to forget the past, to get over something! And this is just amazing !
Think about your family are there a little wonder? Yes they are !
Think about your friends are they always near you....are they making life a better place ? Yes they are!
Think about nature : sunset sunrise , snowing , are they making life beautiful? Yes they are!

When you will loose everything: think about those who love you , think about that after this can come just better days !
When you loose your hope then think about those who have never had hopes ....

When you are desperate , when you want to commit suicide think about those who would gave everything to live ...

When you feel your life is horrible than think very well and find those moments when you were happy , when you said that: "this day is the best "....

Don't live in the past and from past : Live for the present for those moments and find the little beauties of it!"Remember yesterday.... Think about tomorrow .... Live for today".....
Never give up no matter how hard is never give up!

I know life is not easy ! Nobody says it is ! Never was and never will be ! BUT you know what ?
I really think if life would be easy it wold be boring!

Avril Lavigne - Innocence

this video is awesome even if you don't like her plz just listen to it and look at the lyrics

Things we never said

He saw her from behind and recognized her immediately.He walked faster until he was just ahead of her, then turned round, wondering whether to smile. It didn't seem like fifteen years. She didn't see him at first. She was looking in a shop window. He touched the sleeve of her jacket.
"Hello Amanda", he said gently. He knew he hadn't made a mistake. Not this time. For years he kept thinking he'd seen her-at bus stops, in pubs, at parties.
" Peter !" As she said his name, her heart quickened. She remembered their first summer together. They'd lain together by the river at Cliveden. They were both 18 and he'd rested his head on her stomach, twisting grass in his fingers, and told her that he couldn't live without her.
"I'm surprised you recognize me", he said, burying his hands in the pockets of his coat.
"Really?" She smiled. In fact she'd been thinking about him a lot recently. "You haven' moved back, have you?" Surely not, she thought. she knew he loathed the place. Even at 18, he couldn't wait to leave and travel the world.
"Good heavens no", he said. "I'm still in London".
She looked at him . He looked the same. He hadn't begun to go bald like so many of the men she knew but his shoulders were broader and his face slightly rounder.
"I came back for the funeral", he continued. "My father's. A heart attack. It happened very suddenly."
"I'm sorry", she said, though she wasn't really. She remembered him telling her about how his father used to beat him regularly until he was 16 and grew too tall.
"Thank you", he said, tough he felt nothing for his dead father, just relief for his mother. She'd be happier without him. She'd been trying to pluck up courage to leave him for years.
" And I take it that you're not living back here either?"
"I'm in London too", she said.She pushed her hair behind her ears in a gesture that he hadn't forgotten.
"Just back for my sister's wedding tomorrow."
" That's nice", he said, though his only memory of Amanda's sister was as a rather plump, boring 12-year-old.
"Yes", she agreed, feeling that her baby sister's wedding only served to spotlight her own series of failed relationships.
"And your parents?", he asked. "They're well?"
"Fine." She remembered how he always envied her middle-class parents, who ate foreign food and took exotic holidays.
"Are you rushing off somewhere?", he asked.
"No, I'm just killing time, really."
"Then I suggest we kill it together. Let's grab a coffee."
They walked towards Gaby's , a small cafe just off the high street. They had spent hours there when they had first met, laughing and holding hands under the table, and discussing their plans for the future over cups of coffee. They sat opposite each other. He ordered the coffee.
"And so, peter, did you become a foreign correspondent?" she asked,remembering the place they dreamed of visiting together-India, Marocco, and Australia.
"Not exactly", he said. "I'm a lawyer, believe it or not ".She looked at his clothes, and she could believe it. They were a far cry from the second-hand shirts and jeans he'd worn as a student.
"You enjoy it?" she asked.
"yes", he lied. "And you ? Are you a world famous artist?"
He'd always loved her pictured . He remembered the portrait of herself which she'd painted for him for his twentieth birthday.He still had it .
"Well, ..... no."She tried to laugh. She wondered if he still had her self-portrait. She'd stopped painting years ago. He looked at her hair , cascading in dark unruly waves over her shoulders> He could see a few white hairs now, but she was still very beautiful.
"So,"he said . "What are you up to ?"
"Nothing much," she said. "I've tried a few things ".She didn't want to tell him about the succession of temporary jobs that she'd hoped might lead to something more permanent but never had.
"So you're not painting at all?"
"Only doors and walls," she joked , and he laughed politely. She remembered the evenings they'd spent in the small bedsit that they rented together in their last term at college. He'd sit for hours just watching her paint. She filled sketch book after sketch book.
"So where are you in London?" she asked .
"North," he said. It was a three-bedroom flat in Hampstead. Nice in an empty kind of way. He thought about all the evenings he wished he had someone to come home to .
"And you?" he asked , after a pause.
"South. It's okay, I rent a room". She thought of the small room with the damp walls which she rented in an unfashionable part of Clapham."But I'm thinking of buying somewhere. It's one of the reasons I came home. I want to sort things out a bit", she sighed, thinking about the letters from him that she'd found in her old bedroom. She'd been reading them only yesterday.
"Oh, Peter I don't know why I left that day," she said last. He looked up at her.
"It's all right ," he said, remembering the evening she hadn't come back to the bedsit.
"We were young. Young people do things like that all the time," he added, knowing that this wasn't true, knowing that he hadn't deserved such treatment. He thought of all the letter she'd sent to her parents' home, He'd written every day at first, begging her to return or at least to ring him. He'd known even then that he would never meet anyone like her again.
"I suppose you're right."She swallowed hard, trying to hide her disappointment and hurt that he seemed to have no regrets.
"Well, I ought to be going," she said.
"Already? I thought you had time to kill."
"I did", she said , blinking to hold back the tears."But I ought to get back now to help my mother with the wedding."
"I understand," he said, though he didn't. Surely her parents would understand?
"Shall i give you my phone number. Perhaps we could meet up?"
"Perhaps," she said.
He wrote his telephone number on the back of the bill and she tucked it into the zipped compartment of her handbag.
"Thanks. Goodbye, Peter".
"Goodbye, Amanda."
Years later, every so often, she still checked that sompartment to make sure his number was there.