my dear friend

So I can see that i haven't wrote for more than 5 months.... shame on me :)
Ok.. i give up for the moment to change or help the world... i wish to present one of my friends....
Her name is Loneliness :)
She is always near me.... i can't get rid of her .. she always comes and leaves.. she thinks she caught my soul and she controls my life... who knows maybe she is right !!!
It's like a step sister who wants to bother you all along.. She really enjoys making me cry or making me nervous... She wakes me up in the night and tries to take my dreams away...
the only person who she can't fight with are my dreams... They keep me alive, cause if i would let with her on my own i'm sure she would try to kill me :(
sometimes things happen but we don't really know why.. confusion is in my empty soul... love, hate ,hope, loneliness they are all living in my soul.. but they all seem weak to win above the other ones........ They only show me how to be hurt inside
But i promised myself that one day i He will kill her.. and that He should come soon to save me from myself and from her .. He will surely come :)